So today is Memorial Day for those of us in the United States. I fail to see the point in this holiday. At first I thought it was a holiday to honor the dead; but they are throwing parties at the cementarys. That sure is some way to honor the dead all right. Then I thought, "Maybe it's a holiday to honor the soldiers that fought and died in battle?" I see no evidence of that either.

So what is Memorial Day really all about. Cookouts, parities, remembering the dead, ???. Some people use it as a chance to hold family get together. See, most holidays hold a purpose. independence Day, Christmas/Hanukkah, New Year's Day, the list goes on. I don't know what it's all about, but it is a chance to score a free meal and talk with my family a bit. Perhaps I should do some research on this day.

From about 1:30pm until 4:30pm, I was with my parnets at my aunt and uncle's house. We had shitloads of burgers and some bratwurst. Now I'm munching on some ice cream and listening to music on the interweb. My ankle should be better still tomorrow, so I should be able to exercise on it. All this permitted I don't go to a loony bin again.

I changed the background on my desktop yet again. It's from AIR, so that's a plus I guess. You can get to it via the ink on the righit hand side, or the miscellaneous drop down menu (depending on the skin you're using). It's a nice evening theme which matches perfectly for the weather here (when it's not raining ). I have only watched two episodes of AIR -- how careless of me . I have to watch AIR, Venus Versus Virus, and Lucky Star. Hell, I have to download Lucky Star still. Oh and I can't forget Azumanga Daioh! So many shows, so little time! I can't find any episodes of Saint October, but it's not all that interesting anyway.

I have been doing fine for the most part. The only thing that's been bugging me up are the side-effect from my medication. They are causing me to fall and lose memory; I even sprained my left ankle because of a fall. I "black out" and forget everything for a few moments; it's pretty scary if you ask me. I had to convince my parents to not call the hospital on this matter. Still.....I might wind up in a 60-90 day facility . That is rather frightening to me.

When I saw my therapist this Friday, I fell and spilled chocolate milk all over myself just before I met up with him. I also have that "nervous twitch" when I[m sitting down and idle -- almost like Tweak off of South Park. I'm gonna go fix my bike up and see if my ankle can peddle or not. Talk to you folks tomorrow night!

More iPod troubles lead today's headlines. It just "makes me SO MAD" that my iPod decides to fuck up at random locs. What's funny is when I "dropped" it, it fixed itself. Thankfully I keep backups of my musical data now (fool me once), so I'm safe in that department.

Got payed a visit from a friend today. This is the same guy that graduated Sunday. He was sporting a laptop he had won during a raffle drawing that night. So what do we do to it? We fuck with it's settings and install WoW on it! He got a nice sounding Linkin' Park album recently too. Come August 1st, he's going to be homeless. I'm gonna move out and be a roommate then. I've wanted my own place for awhile, conditions permitting. Time to eat some food and play some WoW!

It's finally done. I have coded a second theme for nerblog. You can play with which one you like via the right menu. There's not too much of a difference, but I personally think the new one is..."spiffier".The only page I have left is the FAQ page, which actually needs to be modified anyway. I'll post tomorrow after I watch my friend graduate.

No matter what you do or become in this lifetime and thereafter, remember thjs one golden rule: Do not work out on a full stomach! You wiil wind up losing all of your stomach contents.

I ran a little bit on the treadmill to warm up; I felt urpy afterwards. Stupid me, I stiill went for the power cleans. On my first one, in the trash can in front of me it goes. It being the levithian-size lunch that I had consumed not just 20 minutes prior to working out. Now that shrimp tasted great during round one. Round two...eh not so much as before. I might post more tonight, but as of now, I don't feel so well...

Another second post for a day! Today was an awful day. I had to see the doctor in regards to my asthma, have my blood drawn for medication level testing. I am on 14 different total medications for both my asthma and my schizophrenia. I feel like an old man and I'm only 19 years old!

A friend of mine sent me this comic a few days ago...it made me chuckle a little bit.



Tomorrow after I take care of some business out at the university, I'm going to go on the hunt for an SNES console. Don't bother asking why; I have my reasons!(*cough*Lufia*cough*). I might finish Azumanga Daioh tomorrow. I've been putting my anime - watching off! I am also going to check up on some really old job applicaions and see if I'm stiill wanted. Hey, it can't hurt any . Video is Code Monkey!

It's raining! D:<

Since I'm now using Amarok as my primaary medai player, the now playing sectionn will be NULL. That is until I write a plugin to fit.

I really do need new music. Be it downlownload or buy via CD. Here's a list of the top five bands I'm looking for.

1. Dogwood 2. Red Jumpsuit Aparatus 3. My Chemical Romaance 4. UNDER17 5. Anything involving Yoko Kanno

The last two are foreign, so it'll be a bit harder to obtain.

I rearranged my desktop a wee bit. It's sexy, go check it out!

My iPod is fixed! Thankfully I made a backup of my songs about a month or so ago, so I only lost about 50 songs or so. All I did was navigate into the iPod itself and delete everything by hand (no progs were responding to it). Remembering then that I made a "backup" of my iPod way back when, I quickly burnt it all off from my win32 partition. Lets just hope that it stays working this time! I'm going to start up n00b situations again very shortly. If you're interested in helping out, drop me a line.

After two years of owning one, I am beginning to wonder what good an iPod is over your average mp3/video player. My iPod just crapped out on me for the second time in two years. The first death was an easy fix, but this time it's being pretty stubborn. I think that all my music is backed up; only 20% of it was downloaded, so there's no great loss there. I'm taking this thing into a shop tomorrow (yes, I've tried everything apple.com suggests) and if they can't put any life into it, I'm going to buy a cheap ass 4G mp3 player instead of another 20G. Hopefully technology has gone up far enough that it won't shoot me out another $300.00. In the meantime, I have no CD/mp3 player on hand, so I have to rely on the stereo in my bedroom for music.

I had a rough time at the therapist today. All I'm gonna say is he had some shit in his ears that he needed to clean out. I literally stormmed out of his office in anger (I think I made a scene, too). I always loathe the sessions anyway, but he is really a good guy.

Sometimes my schizophrenia really just pisses me the fuck off. Thanks to the typical hallucinations, my workout today was interrupted. I was running on a treadmill and saw the man in the black fedora and trench coat on a roof looking at me. I blinked and he disappeared; then came the cats. Cats started crawling around and meowing. Icing on the cake, the bald man, which is all he really is, a bald man with demon red eyes was right next to me.

That's when I said enough and went home. You know I find it totally unfair that this medicine can put weight on me by stressing my hunger receptors, but it almost 100% cockblocks me from doing any exercising of my own. There's just got to be a way to counter-act this system that's been set up by these fucking meds. Plus I fail to see the good they do me; I am still having the hallucinations, anxiety, and paranoia that I've always had.

More postings to come tomorrow as it is therapy day. What a joy to my fucking world.

Sometimes my life seems like last call. Just one more drink before I get kicked out. I'd say that 70% of that time, I never get my drink. My problem isn't showing up too late or drinking too much. It's not even being slow on the reflexes. No, what's going on here is me getting the shaft. While still other times my drink is handed to me but nobody lets me finish it. Now I've been dealt good deals before, but they are all few and far between; Murphy's Law applies heavily to my life. I am not trying to work out a pity party either, I just want an answer as to why my life deals me shit.

I'm still level 14 in World of Warcraft. I'm going to have to pick that up between Japanese readings. Yes, I have resumed teaching myself Japanese. The language itself is basic, but the problem lies in the memorization of the kanji. Oh well, if Japanese folks can teach themselves English, then I can do the same with their language. In fact, I need to do a little something before I workout tonight. I'll post again later! Here's a good music video for ya.

I never thought that I'd keep this blog rolling up to 100 posts, but look at me now, ma! Nerblog's 100th post begins now!

It seems that people have ceased to sub Saint October; I can't find anything past episode 3. Venus Versus Virus however, I have all 12 episodes. I still need to make some time to watch VVV -- I'm still stuck on episode 4 .

So how would the idea of a Nerblog forum sound? I was thinking of it being like 4chan, but phpBB based. Different boards for different images, etc. Lemme know if it sounds like a good idea. It would be totally worksafe too, because I don't want more angry mothers shoved in my face!

Well I expected this landmark event to be longer, but that's ok if it's not 1000+ words. One last bit of news on the layout. It will have a lot more coloring in it than the current one. I gotta go shave and shower....bye!!

This past week has been rather dull. I've been having bouts with my schizophrenia and some insomnia recently. I managed to get some programming done on my irc bot. Again, thanks to Max C. for lending me some code and his knowledge. I'm growing to enjoy perl more and more.

I've been taking quite a few PRN meds for my hallucinations and anxiety. Yesterday, even though I reached my med limit, I was still not quite right in the head. It will take just a bit longer (I'm hoping) to get all of this medication shit straightened out. I'm not going to post my med list right now, but lets just say it's 12-14 different medications. I am on more drugs than Dirty Grandpa! This really makes me irate; I often wonder what would happen if I ceased taking my medications. Deep down I know that I would be a clusterfuck to say the least. It actually hurts my throat to take all of my pills at once. Maybe I should take my meds in two doses instead of one giant pull? Oh well...sic vita est I guess. On a side note, Dirty Grandpa got out of the nursing home/rehab today. I can't wait until he goes on his next grand adventure!

Last night I had a bout of insomnia. I woke up at 1:00am and couldn't fall back to sleep until around 6:00am. I'm taking some benedryl tonight to ensure that I stay knocked out. I had a dream that I was a borg (@_o) and I couldn't stop thinking about the dream. I think that's where it all came in.

Next post is a milestone! The next tone will be Nerblog's 100th post! I gotta think of a way on how to celebrate this occassion..

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